Birthday(s)

Today is my birthday.  September 2nd.  Having a birthday is great of course and I love it.  I always take the day off and I have already received so many great gifts and I made reservations at a delicious new restaurant.  But my birthday isn't just mine alone, my Dad and I have the same exact birthday.
My Dad passed away last December.  It's been a really hard year, although I probably don't need to tell you that.  It's been a lot of learning, a lot of crying and breakdowns.  The strange thing is that I don't remember it very well.  Normally I have an amazing memory but this year?  Not so much.  People keep telling me things over and over and I am still surprised to hear them.  You wrote a book?  That's amazing!  Then I see the look of confusion on their face and I realize I already knew that.  It's ok though, people are really nice and they understand for the most part.  I'm calling it "My Year of Crazy" and I get to be as weird and sad as I want and no one can do anything about it. 
So today, this is what I hope.  I hope that I can enjoy my birthday and use it as a time to remember the good memories.  For the rest of my life, I will share a birthday with my Dad, there will never be a year when it is my day alone and I don't want to be upset about it.  I want to be happy about it.  I am stating my intentions and expecting my brain to follow along in this plan.  It might not be so easy this first year but with practice I think it will get better. 
Happy Birthday Dad. 

11 comments:

House of Milk said...

It will definitely get better, just keep that in mind. Happy birthday to you and your papa. :)

Crystal said...

Thank you dear.

OLD BRAND NEW said...

Happy Birthday Crystal! Enjoy your dinner and the weekend! A happy one to your dad as well. > hugs <

Crystal said...

Thank you, it was a good day. Hugs to you as well!

Anonymous said...

You inspire me! Thank you!

Anonymous said...

And happy birthday to you and your Dad.

Crystal said...

Aw! Thanks anonymous!

krista messer said...

many hugs and kisses to you

Crystal said...

Thanks Krista. XOXO

Lauren Bair said...

I love that you wrote about this. And I love you. XOXO

Crystal said...

I love you! You were my inspiration.